Archive for the Friends & Family category
September 18th, 2006
So, I may be the red head, but N2 is the stuborn one. She not only refuses to see my Point-of-view on anything ever, but she doesn’t want to work on our friendship. She’s decided that my accusations are just too hurful and she doesn’t want to deal with me anymore. She has instructed me not to IM or email her again.
SQ had me send her one last email saying “O.K. No Problem. ;)”. I kid you not.
I was like, “You know that’s just going to piss her off. I was just just not going to reply.” But SQ wanted
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Tags: dysfunctional drama, friendship, PBeM
September 15th, 2006
Some or a lot of this post may not make sense to you, dear readers. That’s fine. It’s not really for you. It’s for me, for later.
SQ noted that N2 wasn’t included in a general email I sent to several people updating them on my health. I replied that N2 hadn’t responded to my email from Sunday so I assumed that she didn’t really care one way or the other which is why I hadn’t included her. SQ’s response was to inquire as to whether or not I was sure N2 had actually gotten
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Tags: dysfunctional drama, friendship, PBeMs, rejection
September 13th, 2006
No, like a serious type website matching serious for people who are looking for other people to do friend-type stuff with. I’m not talking about like friendster. I looked around that website a couple of times and that was kind of scary in a potential stalker kind of way. Friendster really seemed to be about people just trying to hook up casually — like bar-hopping on the net.
No, what I mean is that there should be something like eHarmony for matching people up for friendship or at least finding the perfect movie or dining companion. You know, you don’t have
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Tags: friendship
September 12th, 2006
- I can’t believe it’s September and I had to put my flannel sheets on my bed last night.
- I am totally buying longjohns this year.
- I’m jealous that my dog is at doggy daycare and gets to play all day today.
- What if I cough in the middle of the CT-Scan? ‘Cuz aren’t you supposed to be like really really still?
- Still haven’t heard from that supposed friend.
I’m very excited that George Lucas is going to release the
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Tags: Star Wars, George Lucus, CT Scan, Mister Bagel, the puppy
September 11th, 2006
It’s always hard for me to accept that the people I think are my friends aren’t always. I always want to believe that my natural paranoia is tainting my view and so my judgement must be wrong. Therefore, I’m always willing to take so much more crap and believe so many more excuses than maybe other people are. I’m certainly willing to keep trying and trying like a puppy dog who doesn’t know any better long after just because the other person doesn’t have the guts to say that for whatever personal reason, they aren’t interested in being my friend anymore.
What I mean is that for some reason people are not direct with me. They’d rather ignore me and avoid me than tell me to go away. And I am too clueless to get the hint.
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Tags: dysfunctional friendships
August 18th, 2006
I was looking through an old journal of mine and found this poem by Veronica Shoffstall. My mother gave it to me when I was struggling in college to find my niche, my place, myself I suppose. For some reason, I always come upon in again in my belongings when I most need to be reminded and comforted by its words and meaning — I suppose I find it when I need to learn from it again. Funny thing is that I don’t think I understood at 18 what it was really about; certainly at 35, I
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Tags: Veronica Shoffstall, poetry
August 4th, 2006
So O.K. Just some discombobulated thoughts having to do with my family.
- Talking to my mom Wednesday night about the surgeon and the Rheumy, she pops out with “You know your grandmother had Sjögren’s.”
Well, no…I don’t recall that. Now, I’ve talked before about how trying to get a family medical history out of my mother has been like pulling teeth out of a mule and how she always mentions these sorts of things after I’ve talked to a doctor about about them; though generally it’s several weeks or months later; so this is an improvement. However, in this case, I kind
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Tags: dysfunctional family
July 25th, 2006
J: Really, you have nothing to worry about. Those kinds of surgeries are done every day and everything’s fine. It’s like when you had LASIK.
Me: LASIK? Do you actually remember when I had LASIK?
J: um….
Me: There was all this pain? Most painful thing I did to myself on purpose? There was a problem with the surgery done on my right eye? I had to have the surgery redone 6 months later? The recovery was longer than everyone else?
J: Um… oh, yeah. Never mind. This will be better.
Me: Great now
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Tags: gallbladder surgery, LASIK
July 12th, 2006
Well, the first sign of any trouble occurred when I reached the Boston airport. Somewhere between the bus from Portland and security, I lost my nifty really soft travel pillow. Logan airport’s security and Lost and found were extremely unhelpful and rude and ended up giving me a long distance number to call, which I’ve since lost. Hard to believe that lost and found is a long distance phone number.
So, my first expense on the trip was at the Logan airport buying a new one at the Brookstone kiosk (and they wouldn’t give me a discount for loyalty
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Tags: UK, Brookstone, Aer Lingus, Logan Airport, fibromyalgia
June 22nd, 2006
I have to go in for an Upper Endo when I come back from vacation. I’m scheduled for that Friday afternoon as soon as I come back. Just thinking about it makes me want to gag. 
Anyway, apparently, I can’t just go and have the procedure and go home. They apparently drug you up good and they require you to not drive afterward and insist that you leave with a responsible person. They wouldn’t let me take a taxi home either.
I had to go wandering around trying to find a co-worker who could drive me home after the procedure.
It’s not
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Tags: upper endoscopy, mommy
June 13th, 2006
My mother was telling me the other day about a weird set of events that occurred one night while she was on-call for Red Cross. In the middle of the night, the Red Cross cell phone rang and she got up to answer it, but no one was there. She checked the number but it was all 9’s across the screen. She went back to bed and went to sleep.
Several hours later, the same thing occurred.
Well, the next morning, she got to thinking about it and she thought she remembered hearing about some scam where people can
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Tags: Terrorists, phone scams, Red Cross, Conspiracy Theories
June 12th, 2006
Well, I can hardly believe that in two weeks this time, I’ll be in England and on a tour, possibly viewing Stonehenge from behind some gated fence. I’m really started to get excited!
What’s really nifty is that PW is going to be doing all the tours and travelling with me from Monday through Thursday that week, including my overnight stay in Bath and the bus trip down to Glastonbury Abbey! So, I’ll actually get to spend some time with her while I’m there and she’ll actually get to do some touristy things that English doesn’t want to do because, well,
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Tags: England
April 26th, 2006
My friend, who’s parents named him and his sister after characters on the 1960’s supernatural soap opera Dark Shadows, became a first-time father yesterday. His darling daughter is named after a character on two WB 1990’s supernatural soap opera-y type series, Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel.
It kind of makes me wonder what supernatural soap opera will be the cult hit 30 years from now.
Anyway, congrats, 2Cool!
Tags: Dark Shadows, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, WB
April 25th, 2006
- Doctors and nurses make the worst patients and my mother is right up there. She insists that her ankle can’t possibly be broken because it doesn’t hurt “that bad” and refuses to stay off her feet like she’s been told to. She honestly believes the doctor is wrong.
- My only surviving grandmother has taken a turn for the worse and is now refusing to socialize with anyone and has lost 20 lbs.
- I think I forgot to take my meds this morning.
- I’m sleepy and I’ve had bad insomnia for over a week.
- My co-workers are being overly loud and annoying today.
- I feel fat.
- I
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Tags: discombobulated
April 18th, 2006
Well, my father’s pre-diabetes is now diabetes; he’s been put on medication but not insulin as of yet.
And yesterday, my mother stepped off the 8-foot drop in front of their property and managed to land on both of her feet and then fall right on her tail bone. She’s very lucky that all she broke was her ankle.
I’m really starting to get worried about both of them.
Tags: none
April 14th, 2006
To: N2
From: N
Could you at least acknowledge either way that you’re at least getting these emails, that you’re alive, etc? Tell me to shut up and go away if that’s what you want but don’t leave me just sitting here wondering what’s going on.
Talk to me.
To: N
From: N2
Talk to you? About what? Your very unfair and kind of insulting temper tantrum on me yesterday?
We’re still friends, don’t worry.. but I need to cool down still…so give me some time. 
To: N2
From: N
I’ll give you time, yes, but please take into account this perspective (as [SQ] would point out), your
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Tags: friendship, dysfunctional drama, PBeM
April 14th, 2006
I’d like to say TGIF but quite frankly the day of the week means nothing to me. The weekend may be more time alone at home to sulk and stare at an empty inbox or an unrining telephone or an IM-less Y!M.
OK for about seven hours Sunny and Queer Eye will be there to distract me a little tomorrow but then it’ll be just me and the kitties and my runaway thoughts again.
I talked to SQ last night from about 11:30pm to about 1:30 (she’s on the West Coast, you know). She could tell I was distressed and
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Tags: PBeM, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, Firefly, friendship, dysfunctional drama
April 13th, 2006
When it feels as though your friends are abandoning you and that you’ve been betrayed and the world is crumbling around you, how do you stop the crying so you can just go on with your day?
How do you behave as if all is well in the world and your heart isn’t breaking while you sit at your desk wondering who you have left on your side?
When you’ve turned to a person you trusted and opened yourself up and been honest and needy and asked for understanding only to have them kick you even as you were reaching out for
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Tags: dysfunctional drama, depression, anxiety
April 12th, 2006
Let’s get something straight right now. We all have hobbies, right? I mean, there are those of you out there who are seriously interested in WWF wrestling, golf, knitting, scrapbooking, bird-watching, and even bigfoot hunting. I don’t mock. Much. These things are important to you.
I have a tendency to put down my own hobby as being silly and my therapist tries to discourage that because it’s important to me. I try to write-off it’s importance because it’s a “game.” Obviously games are not as important as other things in life and therefore don’t
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Tags: PBeM, roleplaying, anxiety, dysfunctional drama
April 5th, 2006
So, PW is Catholic. Her first husband wasn’t. They were married by a Justice of the Peace is a Community Center and the Catholic Church was never involved or cared.
She’s divorced now of course.
The new fiance is also Catholic and they’ve kind of decided they might want to get married in a Catholic Church though she’s really not all that religious.
Here’s the catch, as I understand it.
If you are Catholic and you’ve been married before and the marriage wasn’t acknowledged by the Catholic Church, welll, then everything’s fine and dandy, and there’s no worries. Happily ever after.
However, if
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Tags: wedding, Catholics
