Archive for
March, 2006
March 31st, 2006
O.K. We haven’t done this in a while either and since Tamara so kindly nudged me, I guess I’ll get on with it too.
- Sometimes The Con itself was so convaluted that it became unclear even to Izzy and Bastian exactly who was conning who or who had even started it this time which made it difficult to figure out exactly when to call it quits and how to tell who won.
- Somedays Matilda just wanted to drape herself in dark withering colors and on other days, like today, she felt like trying to fit every color in the rainbow in
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: writing, Friday Five 1rst Sentences
March 31st, 2006
- I haven’t done these in a while.
- I really like Crest’s new Lemon Ice flavor.
- Zicam Oral Mist tastes like what I image camel piss must taste like.
- Can’t wait to visit Pugly tomorrow.
- I think N2 is avoiding me. Probably just being paranoid.
- Overslept this morning.
- Seriously need to get my house cleaned.
- I haven’t checked my mail box in 3 days.
- Fresh sheets on the bed are always lovely.
- I still wish I had Karen Carpenter’s singing voice.
- I definitely think there should be some sort of Life Coach/care-givers kind of person for depressives — rent-a-mom without the psychological guilt factor bult in.
Tags: discombobulated, the puppy
March 31st, 2006
You remember the Vietnam War -er - Conflict, don’t you? O.K. Some of us are a little too young to really remember it. I have a vague recollection of the end of it and I studied it in school and, of course, I saw like every episode of China Beach and had my hair cut like Dana Delany for a whole year of college.
Anyway, the whole thing was a mess. Everyone pretty much accepts that now. Heck, I think the 2004 elections pretty much prove that we still are fighting our demons from Vietnam.
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: American soldiers, protest, Iraq, Canada, Vietnam War
March 31st, 2006
Well, I had my second Botox treatment last week. I meant to blog about it then, but with all the problems with my web host, it got lost in the shuffle.
I handled it somewhat better. No passing out this time. However, knowing about the 22 shots and what was coming was worse, I think. I felt very ill the whole time, very light-headed. It wasn’t nearly as interesting an experience. I did keep trying to focus on my happy thought, which happened to be Pugly since I was going to go see him immediately
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: botox, topomax, migraine, health insurance
March 31st, 2006
Yesterday was warm enough in Maine for Pugly’s current care-taker to take all of the puppies and mommies outside for an adventure and a picnic. Try to find Pugly. He’s the male fawn with the orange colar. (Don’t feel bad if you can’t find him; I couldn’t either. 
)
So, it turns out that Pugly qualifies to be registered in the AKC and some other official clubs because he’s a pure-bred, which is all very prestigous. He’s the first Mallory with the distinction. 
I think I won’t tell
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Friday Ark, pet blogging, the puppy
March 30th, 2006
Be sure that she knows that it’s not our fault you’re like this.”
– Mom Mallory instructing me upon hearing I was voluntarily entering therapy 10+ years ago
I’m kind of on a roll here with this therapy stuff. It’s kind of like I opened a door and I don’t want to shut it again. There’s all kinds of thoughts and memories about my childhood that are kind of floating in and out. There’s nothing that’s really “ah-ha!” or defining about any of it, but then there wouldn’t be a singular moment that sent me plummeting over into this ball of paranoia, would there. It’ll be a thousand tiny pushes and pin-pricks.
This week in the reading materials and therapy group/class we talked about the nature vs. nurture theories around depression and anxiety.
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: therapy
March 30th, 2006
According to Editor & Publisher, a recent Gallup poll shows that more Americans consider themselves Democrats than Republicans. 33% of Americans now call themselves Democrats while only 32% call themselves Republicans. While this might seem too tight to matter, the 34% of the population that now make up Independents are the telltale sign of which way the nation will go in upcoming elections, it seems.
Independents, it appears, are leaning 49% Democrat and only 42% Republican this year, whereas last year, they were dead even at 46% each.
Not a good sign for the GOP in the 2006
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: 2006 election, Republicans, Democrats, poll
March 30th, 2006
I’m having the strangest morning. Somewhere in the back corner in the shadows of my mind dwells a memory from my childhood that I ignore. Every now and then it peeps it’s head out as if to ask me to reconsider examining it but I never do because I’ve long dismissed it as much ado about nothing, just too much attention over too little, just a lot of embarrassment for a sixth grader.
For some reason, this morning in traffic, I couldn’t ignore it. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s the therapy. I’ve been questioning and exploring my childhood quite a bit the last few days, trying to revisit the events that might have pushed me over the edge into this ball of anxiety and paranoia I am today.
And there it was.
I was nine years old and in the sixth grade. I’d started a year early. I’d also done a pretty good job of nearly getting expelled from an expensive private fundie Christian school so I was attending a public elementary school while my parents looked for another non-Catholic private school in New Orleans that would have me. The teachers either loved me or hated me and whereas one would ask me to keep an eye on her 2nd grade class, another would keep me from taking the tests for the gifted classes “just because” — and don’t give me that crap about how teachers aren’t like that, my mother discovered later that I was always right about my teachers ‘tudes.
Anyway back to the memory, I had become a crossing guard or bus monitor or somesuch. Whatever it was, I got to leave class early in the afternoon and wear a nifty orange vest and make people walk not run in straight lines to their buses. It was important work and it was a great honor and I took it quite seriously and I was proud of the honor. I wore that vest like a badge of courage and privilige. I was special, and since I wasn’t exactly the prettiest or the smartest or an athlete and since I was younger than everyone and didn’t live in the same neighborhood, I kind of needed that feeling of special beyond being the absolute smallest.
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: rape, Women's Rights, therapy, wellness, Me
March 29th, 2006
There is a difference it appears between rocking the boat and standing up for yourself.
I’m still struggling to see where the line is exactly. I could picture my father frowning in disapproval as I made my decision this morning to stand up for myself and rock the boat just a little.
I’ve described my co-teammates drama queens on more than one occassion, but the queeniest of them all is definitely FW. He certainly gets himself into these pissy, martyr-like moods. Mind you, he certainly knows pretty much everything about everything and he deserves respect and I am certainly in awe of
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: work, drama queen
March 29th, 2006
Those of you who don’t suffer from any kind of anxiety might not understand, but for me I live in a constant state of feeling like something dreadful is about to happen. Even though I have never ever been evicted from anywhere, just seeing a flyer stuck in my door is enough to trigger a mild panic attack as I approach from the parking lot, the flashing light on my answering machine is a harbringer of some horrible message of doom, and if it’s not shaped like a card from the Hallmark store, any envelop with my parents’ handwriting means I am in trouble, despite the fact that I am now thirty-five years old and have lived on my own since 1993.
And, no, the fact that I can see the humor in my own pain does not make it any easier. It just means that I should reconsider my left-behind career in stand-up comedy.
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: anxiety, dysfunctional family
March 29th, 2006
Yesterday afternoon, I heard an interview with a “spokesperson” for illegal immigrants. Of course this is the hot topic of the week what with all the legislating in Washington D.C. the last week or so and the protests.
(I’ll go ahead on record stating that I’m against an amnesty program because I have a whole problem with the whole illegal bit of the undocumented immigrant issue. I don’t want to see people rewarded for committing a crime when other people have been waiting patiently going through the proper channels trying to get into the country legally.)
Anyway, so this guy,
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: immigration
March 28th, 2006
You know, I’ve been thinking the last couple of days about Abdul Rahman, the Afghan man who converted to Christianity from Islam. The Muslims in Afghanistan, that country we freed from the restrictive Taliban, want to kill him for this “crime” against Islam.
Apparently, while we were cheering about all of those changes we brought to the country, no one was paying attention to the fact that there weren’t any real changes being brought to the country. We ousted the Taliban and we’ve had those nifty elections where we forced the Afghan men to let the Afghan women vote
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Abdul Rahman, Afghanistan, Women's Rights, George W. Bush
March 28th, 2006
I nearly choked on my Diet Dr. Pepper when I read this. Too funny!
Former Speaker of the House Newt Gingrich, who masterminded the 1994 elections that brought Republicans to power on promises of revolutionizing the way Washington is run, told TIME that his party has so bungled the job of governing that the best campaign slogan for Democrats today could be boiled down to just two words: “Had enough?” [“Republicans On The Run” (Time Magazine)]
I so want that on a bumper sticker, only one of those ones that goes on the inside of the window so it
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Newt Gingrich, Republicans, Democrats, Time Magazine
March 28th, 2006
This parking lot is apparently a no-Bush zone.
Tags: Freedom of Speech, photo
March 28th, 2006
Bill in Portland Maine on The Daily Kos reprinted this local letter from a local outraged parent, who’s son is serving overseas, and no matter what you think about the President and his policies and how he got us into the war and how he’s running the war, you have to agree that American soldiers deserve some sort of compensation for the risks they’re taking so we can sit in our comfortable chairs in the safety of our homes. I’ve always believed that American soldiers deserve that something extra — like in ancient Celtic times when the
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: blogs, Maine, Iraq, American soldiers
March 28th, 2006
Yesterday, lots of leftist blogs were talking about The New York Times reporting on the “latest” memo revealing President Bush and Tony Blair’s nefairious plans to go to war in Iraq no matter what, even if it meant *gasp* tricking the world somehow.
Stamped “extremely sensitive,” the five-page memorandum, which was circulated among a handful of Mr. Blair’s most senior aides, had not been made public. Several highlights were first published in January in the book “Lawless World,” which was written by a British lawyer and international law professor, Philippe Sands. In early February, Channel 4 in London first broadcast several
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Iraq, Downing Street Memo, George W. Bush, Tony Blair, New York Times, Judy Miller, politics, WMD, Saddam Hussein, Conspiracy Theories
March 27th, 2006
So, O.K. I moved all of the personal stuff about myself like what books I’m reading, what’s on my Neflix list, the countdowns to when Pugly comes home and when I go to England, and my general status to that Most Current 411 on N. Mallory link on the right. I will update that page fairly regularly for anyone who actually is interested.
I added those Technorati tags on the bottom right too, but those are only the tags that appear like at least 3 times in the blog or something. If you want to see every tag
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: blogs
March 27th, 2006
Well, I know some of you are going to say I’m not a really real geek because I didn’t go see the whole Lord of the Rings trillogy in the movie theater, but I had my reasons which I’m really not going to explain here because in part they’re kind of childish. So there.
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Lord of the Rings
March 26th, 2006
I’ve mostly been listening to talk radio — the news in particular — and watching TLC or Lord of the Rings all weekend. The last time I acually listened to my iPod was when I went to see Pugly on Tuesday and I was in a country kind of mood, so here’s this week’s list of the last 25 songs I played…
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: iPod, iTunes, playlist
March 26th, 2006
Bet you never put much thought into it. I never did really, but, as you know, I’ve started that Cognitive Therapy group, which as it turns out is more like a class with lots of homework (5 chapters this week alone). One of the things we covered last week, which is in our required reading in Mood over Mind is the difference between a Mood and a Thought.
Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: wellness, anxiety, depression
