Blog Musings…Life Is Better
Since I now have the capability to categorize my posts, I went back and sorted the 150+ posts converted from Greymatter. To do so, I, of course, had to at least skim, if not read them all.
What I realized is that while I’m still suffering from anxiety and depression, I no longer have dreams about losing my job and I am financially better off than I was a year ago. I’ve also been reminded that the frequency of my headaches and migraines has significantly decreased. My blood pressure is down. I am still a lazy procrastinating slob who secretly desires to embrace her inner-neat freak. My cats have recovered from the trauma of the move. It’s hard to believe it’s been a whole year.
While work is weird and sometimes frustrating, it’s not sad and angry and insane like my old work. It’s nice to be appreciated and it’s good to know that I am getting the hang of things. My boss’ compliments have done my bruised ego some good. I don’t know that I’ll ever be the total diva I was at my last job where I truly believed they couldn’t survive without me, but certainly I’m regaining some confidence in my own abilities and skills.
Certainly, I’ve learned to like my little part of Maine. I never thought I’d be able to survive without Smoothie King and 24/7 Super Walmarts, but I am surviving. It’s a different world in Maine from New Orleans, but it’s a nice change of pace.
So, I still have some issues to resolve, but compared to a year ago, I’m doing better. I could do without so much rain, but I’m surviving.
And for the first time in my life, I’ve been able to make impulsive travel plans that involve taking a plane to visit N2 in VA and go sight-seeing in D.C. In the past, I couldn’t have afforded it financially and I would have dragged my feet about the impracticality of it all and what that $200 plane ticket might have bought instead. Like food. Or electricity. Or shoes. 
So, even though I’m trying to dig myself out of a deep depression this month, I can take comfort in knowing that things are definitely better.
tags: anxiety, depression, wellness, migraine
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