I Am So Pissed

A year and a half ago, SQ asked me to give her ownership of a PBeM I had been half-heartedly running. She had grand plans for it and I reluctantly did so. I was not the original owner of the game, but had been on the game the longest. I had shared the burden of running the game with another player. The three of us became co-moderators and eventually brought a fourth into the fold.

The game went really well for about a year and then in December something just went wrong, I guess. I know that I had lost my job and was dealing with that. I am told that the others all had real life crises of some sort. The game pretty much wilted over the last six months.

But there had been talk in the last few weeks of getting things going again. The moderator I shared the burden with originally backed out of that position which left three of us. We began to communicate or at least I was trying. My main complaint about how things had been running was that there was little communication going on particularly among the moderators which meant that if something came up in real life, no one else could pick up the story line and run with it because no one was sharing story lines. I said over and over that the way to fix this was communication.

Last night without discussion or any communication or any warning, SQ shut down the game and she and the other moderator unsubscribed themselves from the moderator mailing list.

I am so pissed off. This game has been running for five years. It has stalled and been brought back to life before, usually with the help of new moderator blood. I would rather do a hand-over to new moderators than have this game die. No one asked me and I no longer have the power to do something about it.

I’ve sent emails to both J (the other moderator) and SQ asking what happened. I assume that they had a fight of somesuch. I also told SQ that I want the game back and I plan to revive it. I sent an email to everyone on the list asking if they are still interested in playing. I’ve already got back a response. I am hurt. I feel betrayed. I have put five years into this game and I think the players deserve something better than the sudden appearance of an email telling them the game is over, particularly since there was recently an email saying things were in the works to get it going again.

I am so upset I might cry. I wish I knew what happened. I feel betrayed.

tags: PBeM, dysfunctional drama

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